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Gary (my ex) just called me out of the blue and asked me if I wanted to hang out in Amsterdam with him today.
We've been friends since we split up, but we haven't really talked much. Just when he's been by to hang out with other people. I told him I had a doctor's appointment, and had to go to amsterdam later to pick up stuff from the beauty supply, but that dad was taking me down. I'm not sure what to make of this. I know he still has feelings for me, and I feel bad. Although I shouldn't. He's the one that let me go. Not that he's a bad guy. He's a really sweet guy, and I do feel bad. I hope, for his sake, he doesn't try to call me again. Since I'll be down at Craige's from this Friday until Feb. 20th, he won't get an answer. I just don't want him to take it personally.

Every 100k views and Corey "Mr. Safety" donates $300 to Haiti: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=URBdbxZjXlA&feature=sub

Makes me feel an iota less useless since I watched it.

I usually think about the dream I was just having before I woke. I'm usually dreaming right up until I wake up, so I can remember it pretty well. I usually think about my love when I fall asleep, because I always get done chatting with him on webcam right before I retire. He usually  takes up the majority of my thoughts, anyway.

 

It seems this is the mentality of most of the country, if not the world. Hehe.

I spend a great deal of energy trying to find the perfect gift for someone. I'm always disappointed if I can't get the gift I know would be perfect for them. It gives me great joy to find the best gift for someone. I try by best not to cop out and give them some generic gift, like a gift card or just plain money. It's not special if I do that. I think people like to open an actual gift that I took time to pick out just for them. I hope everyone would do the same for me.

I'm assuming this means marriage proposal...I don't have an idea of a "perfect" proposal, but I've always loved those fun, creative ways people have proposed. Out in in public, showing everybody how much you love each other. One favorite of mine was when two guys proposed to their girlfriends on Emeril. It was Valentines Day, and Emeril handed them chocolate boxes with rings, if I remember correctly. Then they proposed. So wonderful. As for me, I'd love one of those big, showy proposals. Of course, I don't need one. If he chooses to do it over an intimate dinner at home, that's okay, too. I definitely, positively DO NOT want any gold or diamond rings. Whatever kind of ring he gives me, I'll love. I've pretty much always thought diamonds and gold are gaudy and hideous. No, thank you. Whenever he does it, though, I'll say yes, because we both know we're meant to spend the rest of our lives together. As long as he doesn't do it at a sports game, then we're good.

TROPICS. So very much. I can't stand severe cold, and it's pretty damn around here right now.I just tweeted about this earlier... Craige can't stand the cold either. Because of his disability and blood pressure lowering meds he takes for that, he gets cold way too easily. Therefore, when we live together and save up enough money, we're moving to fucking Florida. Either that or California. We'll research which one would be better. Florida is, you know, the south, so maybe Cali.

Yes, I really think honesty is the best policy. Craige and I have absolutely no secrets from each other(except what we are buying each other for gifts, but those won't be secrets by the end of the month!), and my relationship with my very best friends is pretty much the same. Of course, total honesty is quite impossible. It's just human nature to be dishonest about some things, but I don't have many. Total honesty is definitely not desirable, though. See the movie "The Invention of Lying" for a great example. Or, just see it, it's a great movie!

Damn right it has. I love being able to download movies, t.v. shows, music, etc. from the computer. The first really cool new way to watch movies I remember is ordering them from my cable service with my remote. I loved that, and I still do. Wish I still had Time Warner Cable. Formerly known as Staten Island Cable. The stubborn bastard who owns the cable up here won't let Time Warner up here! It's bull.

It wouldn't do squat. I don't do anything shady or potentially embarrassing with my email. Besides, if either my best buddy or my beau wanted to read my emails, I'd be like, "Okay...but why?" My email isn't particularly exiting, like most of my life. From an outsider's perspective, I mean. I get plenty exited about things that happen to me, but nobody else would. If you're looking to eavesdrop on me, read my emails or IMs, or even peek through my windows, you'll be sorely disappointed. If you want scandals and fascinating secrets, go somewhere else.

Halloween, most definitely. There's nothing I like more than dressing up, doing special effects makeup, etc. I was rather proud of my skills this year, especially since it was last minute. I really should post pics for everyone, I keep forgetting.

Not that I don't love Thanksgiving. It's a ritual sacrifice, with pie! ^__^

Dinner's going to be soon, mom made gluten free stuffing for me this year. I sampled it before it went into the oven, it's delicious! Plus, right now she is making gluten free gravy for me from pan drippings and most likely corn starch. She's baking gluten free cheddar biscuits for me, too! Quite the yummy dinner.

Eh, not really. Everything that he does that annoys me I pretty much tell him about. Sometimes constantly. Hehe.

 Hello, all. I realize I haven't actually posted updates since before I left. Sorry. My fault. I see having TV again is a bad thing. A very bad thing. It's distracting. Even when there's nothing good on, you desperately search through the channels, looking for something even the slightest bit interesting to watch. It's a disease, all right. I'm better off without it.

In other news, we're going to a concert tonight, at the Borgata. It's The Roots, the band that plays for the Jimmy Fallon show. I hope I'll enjoy it, but I'm not sure. I know Craige will, because he's been looking forward to this for months. Dunno if we're getting anything to eat first, I'll have to see.

Were going out tomorrow. There's a Halloween party at the Tropicana, at the Quarter. It should be fun. I'm exited, I've never been to a big Halloween party before. I wanted to have plenty of time to get costumes for us, but it seems that I always think I have more time, but I don't. We're going to have to end up getting our costumes tomorrow. That's right,  we're buying our costumes on Halloween. I don't think I've ever cut it that close in my life. Oh, well. I think we're going with my original suggestion; Sally from Nightmare Before Christmas, and Dr. Finklestein, the mad scientist that created her. Hopefully, we can get the things for that costume, otherwise I don't know what we'll do. Craige might end up going as Jack instead. I can do some skull makeup for him in lieu of a mask, because that might be more comfortable. I was thinking Dr. Horrible and Penny would be awesome, but we didn't have enough time to plan that. We would have had to go shopping for some good Penny clothes for Craige to wear. Well, maybe next year.

I'll post some more of my exploits later, including our hotel stay. For now, I must get dressed. Toodles.

 http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2009/10/28/earlyshow/living/recipes/main5432851.shtml?tag=cbsnewsSectionsArea.7

Cool. Celiacs are getting more recognition now. I love it.

I do indeed. I have him right now, and I shall be with him tomorrow. It's 5:26. 24 Hours and...about 30 minutes. The train gets into Atlantic City about 5:53 According to the confirmation sheet-thingy I printed out the other day. I have almost everything packed that I need. I can hardly wait.

God, I am so BORED! I have to wait until Craige calls me tonight, so we can watch X Files before I go to bed. I have to go to bed early. Really, really early. Dad says we should leave the house around 7 to get there on time for the train, Which means I have to get up around 6-ish. Oy. I should have been getting up even earlier than I have been to get ready. Damn. I really must get to bed as early as possible. I have no idea how long it'll take me to fall alseep, I hope not long at all.

Sigh. I supppose I should go do the dishes.

A word/phrase I love for a reason I cannot discern: "Clusterfuck".

Suggestions for "Clusterfuck" by spellcheck: Cluster, Lackluster, Blusterous, Knuckleduster. What the hell is a knuckleduster?

I realized I shouldn't be online so much. I'm getting more and more bored with online activities, and bored with the Sims 2. It happens, I'll be more interested again some time down the road. It cycles that way. The thing is, I'm bored to death with computer things, but I'm still here. Why? Why can't I just go away? I think it's become such a habit for me that I keep thinking if I search the computer/internet long enough, I'll find something to entertain myself. I'm not sure that's the best attitude, for anyone, really. I should go find a snack and then go read some of one of the marvelous books Craige bought me for my birthday. I haven't read any of them yet, but I'm sure they're all marvelous. I know later on I'll be back on the comp to watch tv shows with my love, but I do that every night. It's just a way to see him every day. It's like I'm hanging out with him at the end of every day. It's rather nice. Of course, I'm getting tired of this facsimile, and I'm dying(not literally) to go see him. Sometime soon, maybe near the beginning of October. Sarah said she might take off school and come with me, which would be so awesome. She'd probably take the train down with me, and take the train or bus back up later. She'd probably stay about a week, whereas I'd definitely want to stay at least two weeks. Ah, anyway, I really should be going, must find something to do until my love calls me.

Location detector says Northville. Close, but no cigar.

Hooray, it's my birthday! I'm 24 today, which is not old. It's not. Anyway, Sarah and Jorden are coming over later for dinner. I am helping to prepare my foods later on. It's going to be appetizers and fun foods today. Mmm. Goodness. Pizza, Mozzarella sticks, perhaps some garlic knots if I can wrangle it, bacon water-chestnut appetizers, which are really yummy. I wanted to make a gluten free onion bloom, 'cause I found a recipie online, but I couldn't find it anywhere. Grr. Oh, well. Also, Gluten Free birthday cake! For the first time ever, I get a guilt-free birthday cake! Yellow cake mix with chocolate frosting. A very thin layer of frosting, because my teeth still hurt. Craige bought me great birthday presents this year! I shall show them to you later, because apparently the usb cord is broken. Grr. Sigh. Dunno if there's another. Might have to take pics later with my webcam, instead. I will close with posts from years past, the ones on or near my birthday. A few of them I didn't actually make on my birthday but did talk about it in them.


( '04 )
( '05 )


( '06 )


( '07 )
( '08 )

It's interesting to see how I've grown, and how much different things are this year as opposed to last year, the year before that, etc. If  anyone wants to know about the stuff in these posts, just ask me, and I shall give you an update. I know some of you have joined the mixed nuts after I made those posts. How do I feel on my birthday? Well, I feel older. I think more mature, and I'm growing emotionally. I'm becoming more ready for things that I know I wasn't ready for in past years, such as getting my own place. I know I'll enjoy that. and who knows? Maybe this time next year I'm be posting from my own computer, in my own apartment, with Craige. Ah. That would be so nice. Well, I shall try to make more actual posts, like I promised. as always, thank you for reading my ramblings.

Yes, I think they are much more likely to cheat then. That's pretty obvious. I do indeed believe in marriage, but I think it's a personal choice for each couple(straight or gay, thank you!). I don't think people need to get married. If they both want to, then go right ahead. I know some people think getting married is something everyone should be forced to do, especially women. That's definitely not right. You should only be married if you want to be with your love forever. Marriage isn't about pleasing anybody's deities, it's about showing the person you love that you want to be with only them, for the rest of your lives.